Today was a mildly rough one. Felt like I had been medicated all day. So groggy….actually slept 11 hours last night, first time in a while I have slept that much…then took a 3 hour nap…no energy for anything. Been a while since I have felt this beat up…not sure what has caused it…usually happens when my anxiety is on overdrive ~ that day was Wednesday…had a video conference with my psychiatrist. So let’s chat about that….called and confirmed my appointment- logged into my account- went into the “waiting room”- double checked to make sure I was in the right room…I wasn’t I was still in my “confessionalist’s” from last week..ugh….now what? Logged out of her room and tried to log into the right room but for whatever reason someone else was in my waiting room so I couldn’t get in….called the office (by this time I am 10 minutes late to a 15 minute appointment) and by this time my anxiety is going up quickly, my leg is working 100 miles per hour going up and down…finally got a person after going through what felt like 20 prompts and she says oh it happens, can the dr just call you? Wow, what? It just happens? It doesn’t just happen to a person with an anxiety disorder, they of all people should realize this. Finally I am chatting with my dr on the phone. One of my meds is making me have tremors and muscle jerks and causing me to choke sometimes when I swallow my food or my meds. Choked on my steak the other night and hubby had to save me….so thanks to my newest medicine that makes me feel almost human caused me to almost choke to death. So I now have to cut this pill in half because it’s the lowest dose….this pill is so small we have to use a pill cutter. Tonight is my first night taking the 1/2 pill so we shall see if that helps the tremors and choking.

Enough of that talk…my granddaughter will be spending 3-4 nights with us next week while her mommy and daddy go in for the delivery of her brother…excited but sad because no hospital visits 😔. Going to be an exciting week with lots of FaceTime calls! Another blessing being added to my tribe.

Much love 🥰