I do a lot of declining calls and ignoring text messages, saying sure I’ll go but when it’s time having to decline because my brain is now on overload for all of the what if’s that may or may not happen. I also have a lot of days of doing nothing…like 4 hour naps because I just can’t deal, or wearing my headphones on noice canceling because I can’t handle noise. Waking up pissed off for no apparent reason other than the fact that I woke up…

It’s not all bad days, some days I want to be busy but then the physical pain starts and my body says nope we are going to suffer today even though all that stuff on the table or the island or in the kitchen sets my irritation off to the point I just go to my room and shut the door…you know out of sight out of mind. Mental disorders suck, and new ones that you have to learn new tricks to cope with are even worse

Much love 🥰